The agony of loss and the deeply distressing moments I faced while grieving my beloved mother’s passing reopened the wounds of my childhood pain that brought nothing but pent-up emotions and trauma. 

 

Coming to terms with the loss of a loved one takes a long time. Grief is never rushed and comes without a manual of ‘how to grieve’. You get good and bad days in, which can sometimes feel like an emotional rollercoaster. Rather than getting easier, grief feels denser. You become overwhelmed trying to adjust to the situation, you become tired of feeling vulnerable, tired of feeling profoundly sad, tired of feeling afraid to lose everyone in your circle, tired of being frightened to make friends or to trust someone new, and most definitely tired of feeling alone.